Long time no blog!

   Havent wrote on here forever!! SO much has been going on ry has been growing so big and so fast each and every day but I will write more about that in her own little blog. The 4th of July just passed and we had a fun time! Had a party with good friends. Also went to a parade and fireworks and it was miss ryleighs first. She was awake all day and loved all of it! We also just took ryleigh on her first zoo trip! And she loved it. She looked at all the animals in amazement. It melts my heart to see her growing each and everyday.

  Things have been amazing lately as normal. I know people probably dont believe us when we say we love each other so much but its true. Every couple has their moments. But Im so thankful to have ed in my life. I truly believe we were ment for each other and brought together for a reason. I think theres times when everyone has thought they have found their "one" but really I know for me I soon saw what I thought was a good relationship really wasnt and I deserved much more and thats when ed came. I hear about men getting physical and I could never ever imagine him raising a hand at me what so ever. And I feel like ppl more and more take marriage as a joke. And to marriage isnt just a paper I could care less about that. Marriage to me made us as a whole were now one. I love him more then life its self. And I wish I could even begin to explain to him how I feel but there truly are no words for how amazing he is to me and his beautiful daughter we love you

Letter to Ryleigh

I have a notebook that I write to ryleigh I have done this since I was pregnant and still do. But I want to write one on here also.

  To my dear sweet baby girl,
  You have changed our lives forever more then you will ever know. From the minute I found out I was pregnant I loved you. You make me so very happy each and everyday and I love seeing how you grow and your learning so many things. Every morning when I go and get you up you crack a huge smile as I say good morning sweetie and that makes my whole day. Everything you do makes me so happy. I love when you get up from a nap and you still have sleepy eyes and I pick you up and you just cuddle on me. You hold on to my shirt like you never want me to leave. I never knew I could love someone so much. The feeling is nothing I can put into words. I promise to always be the best mommy to you. Im so thankful God has gave us you. Its the best gift ever. I love you with all that I have and Im so very proud to be your momma. You have my heart forever.

Love you forever and always Mommy

So I just need to vent. Im so tired of hearing about people and how they dont have money. Ok like I understand people have hard times and I know kids are expensive. But sitting on your facebook and saying how you have no gas no food no nothing to do anything fun is annoying. Plus on top of it seems like they mooch off other people to do stuff with their kids. Okay so you dont have money why go all over facebook and tell everyone to me you want them to feel bad. And if for some reason I was in that place I would find something fun for me kids to do. And why would you want them growing up stressing with you about not having money? Freaking do crafts go outside do something instead of bitch. And I think if you need help then you deff should use it. Thats what its used for. BUT theres a fine line between that and abusing the damn system. Maybe Ohio should change their ways of how you get welfare. They will pay for you to go to school so why not? Theres a difference between needing help and living off of it. If you lost your job or something happens then fine but for years is a little crazy. I dont care if ppl get pissed over this is crazy to me. Grow up! The End :)

"We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets." -Marilyn Monroe

  I havent got a chance to write everyday. Now that I have time I can update. I thought this quote fit today since people believe the world will end. Honestly Im not going to lie it does scare me. I wouldnt be telling the truth if I said the thought of everything gone doesnt scare me. But do I think it will happen right now? No. Reasoning being God said only he will know the day and hour it will happen. Not even Jesus will know till the day of.  I personally do not want to live everyday of my life worrying. Why? What for? Does it get me any where? Absolutly not. People love to see other people scared and get worked up. This was suppose to happen how many times before. What was suppose to happen at midnight for new years in 2000? I will say though it makes me see even more how much I love my family and friends. I miss them so much! And also makes me see how truly blessed I am to having an amazing husband who would give me the world if he could. We also have an amazing beautiful healthy baby. Who makes me happy each and everyday and I love seeing her grow. So to wrap this subject up Im going to keep living and not worry.

  Ryleigh is growing up so much and so fast! Im trying to take it all in as much as possible and enjoy this time I have with her. They are only babies for so long and seems like that stage goes so fast! Its weird I feel like Ive been a mom forever and I have this down pretty good but she only 3 months. She now is rolling over! She will even try to roll over when shes on my chest. Its like ill show you mom lol. Shes so darn cute. Shes seems like she is finally getting some kind of hair! Just light.

 Starting to June 1st ed is off for 6 days! Only 6 but itll be nice to be the 3 of us spending time together. And I know that he really needs a break from work. Were getting our pictures done. And maybe getting our fishing license so fishing maybe a day or to. Which be nice and relaxing. And would like to spend another day pulling weeds and putting in some pretty flowers. Which cant wait for. Also June 2 nd is our anniversary! we will be married one year! Already I cant even believe it. Its so amazing. Hes truly my best friend.

 Im so excited for all of Ryleighs first coming up! July 4th is right around the corner. Ed gets off that day and 2 days after. So we decided to have ppl over and hopefully if the weather is nice grill out then all go to fireworks. Which will be so fun!! And then fall will be here before we know it! First thanksgiving and Halloween and Christmas! We LOVE Halloween and I cant wait to dress her up. So many exciting things going on! Were hoping to make it back home August. As long as eds leave gets approved. Which is excting so she can meet everyone! Ahh feels good to catch up on writing lol. xoxo mel

Been a while

 I haven't got the chance to write in here in a while. Its been busy around here! Been enjoying outside a lot when the weather is nice and not raining. Ryleigh is getting so big. I cant believe she is 3 months today! I get emotional over it. Mainly bc when I was nine weeks pregnant they were telling me it was looking like I had a miscarriage. And now look shes 3 months nice and healthy. She makes my whole day. My first mothers day was nice and relaxing. Ryleigh got me a card that made me cry. And I was hinting around that Ive been wanting a key necklace forever. And I also wanted something that was Ryelighs birthstone. But with her being due so close to end of Feb I kept saying my luck I would get something and her be a week late and born in march. So I got a key necklace and the top of the key is her birthstone. I love it. Its so amazing being  a mom. It truly is the best feeling. The love I have for her is something I cant even put into words. She means the world to me. Of course my husband also lol. On April 30th we have been dating for a year already . Even though we have known each other for a lot longer then that. And on June 2nd we have been married for a year and I cant believe it! It has went so fast and I'm so thankful for everything. I'm glad I found the person I'm ment to be with forever. Its the most amazing feeling. Whats funny other relationships seem to die down after some time. But not ours. I still miss him to pieces everyday when he goes to work. I still have that butterfly feeling when he says something sweet to me. My heart still melts when he says I love you to me. Its the best feeling in the world. I look at myself today and where I am in life and I could not be happier. I have a wonderful family who I get to spend everyday with.  People think when you become a wife and parent your life is over like no more fun. But me I don't think that at all. We do family things together and that to me is fun. I wouldn't change it for the world!

Bday Blues

 Tomorrow is my birthday :) Ill be 22 an old woman! lol. But its not even a big deal to me. Theres nothing big I want to do and I didn't ask for anything from hubby. I just want to relax tomorrow and were cooking steak on the grill. But I think after 21 its kind of like ok well no biggy till my 30th b day lol. I'm happy thought bc they switched eds days. He only worked 2 days this week anyway but it was set up funny. So now he worked yesterday and works today then he is off for 4 whole days! And he isn't on call this is much needed family time! I think I'm also thinking my birthday isn't a big deal because we have so much other things going on that's going to fun and exciting! On the 30th we will be together a year! (married a year in June) The time has gone so fast! This weekend they have Holland Happenings and theres a parade and street fair so we will be doing that on Saturday. It'll be a lot of fun! Friday is our day to grocery shop and laundry blah BUT instead I get the best Mother's day gift ever! Ryleigh and I are doing a Mommy and me session. The photographer does amazing pictures and I'm so excited to capture this time with her. She's my world. It's also suppose to be so nice out Sat and Sun and that will be very nice. Sunday we were going to do the Zoo esp since its nice but now I'm not 100% sure because we have such a busy week already! Can't wait!!

 Our Easter was very nice. We went to church on base ryleigh was very good and we got so nice comments on how cute she is. The service was very nice. We saw another Corpsman Ed works with and invited him over to eat dinner. And another corpsman that Ed went threw boot and school and now stationed together came too. And my brother in law invited another couple and their baby. All though 3 of the people were last minute we didn't care at all. This is how I see it we have the food anyway and everyone is friends why would anyone want to be alone on any holiday? I wouldn't want to be. So we came home and did ryry's basket. We pulled everything out one by one and we made it such a big production so she looked at us like really mom and dad but then started smiling; Then the boys got put to work they peeled and diced potatoes for home made mashed potatoes which I was so thankful for because I HATE doing that. Dinner was so amazing! My brother in law after cleaned the kitchen and did dishes didn't even have to ask him and it was very nice. It was nice having our family and our military family. Very blessed!

EASTER!!!!

 Tomorrow is RyRy's first Easter. And it's also Ed n I. I'm so excited. Everything is different when you have your own little family. I love it so much!
 We gave her some stuff early a few weeks ago and her pink basket with yellow grass is all ready to go for tomorrow! Can't wait! We plan on going to church here on base. As long as Ryleigh is in a good mood lol. She decides everything. Then come home to give her her basket and eat dinner. Yummy! We also wrote a letter to the Easter Bunny (well momma did) and I wrote one back from the Easter bunny. I know she will never remember any of this but one day she can look back on it. I know ill be taking tons and tons of pictures and everything like cards and the notes I wrote ill be putting in a scrap book for her. I want to do these things so she can look back at em. It doesn't matter if she is only 2 months it means a lot to me.

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!

New person

 Maybe its just a mental thing but I swear today with out the IUD I feel mentally emotionally physically better! I feel much  happier and not crampy anymore. I'm so glad that's all it was.

 Hubby is off next 2 days : ) I'm so glad he doesn't have to work 3 days in a row. I know that doesn't seem like anything. But the things is working 12hrs plus 3 in a row is like pushing it. He gets home and goes right to sleep and then gets up we eat and back to work. So I'm glad that he doesn't have a 3 day stretch this week! Its looking decent out right now so we were thinking about the park and maybe some ice cream.

 I'm SOOOO excited for Easter. I went and bought Ryleighs Easter stuff today. Mind you I bought her things a couple weeks ago for Easter but of course I didn't wait and put it in the basket she already got it all. lol can we say spoiled?!?!?!

 I use to say only one kid then I said two. I deff want more kids one day. Not soon but one day. But deep down I worry that I wont be able to have the same amount of love like I do with ryleigh. Will I be as excited for every part of pregnancy and all the first? That sounds awful but its what I think about. I have so much love for ryleigh. She amazes me so much with each and every little thing she does. Shes so sweet. When she lays on me she just clings to me. Like momma don't ever let me go. And that seriously just melts my heart. I want to cry thinking about it. Its the sweetest most loving thing Ive ever experienced. We made this little bundle of life. I get so emotionally over it because its amazing and I love her so much!! momma loves you ryry!

Much better!

   I feel better already! I have been having issues w my IUD since I got the thing in. Mood swings like crazy! (poor ed) Non stop bleeding severe headaches. I went to the OB today and it was all bc of the stupid IUD so I got it out and was put on the mini pill. I still have a little milk so my doctor gave me a pill to help the production so we should see how that goes!

  Today we got a package from Eds mom and dad and his me maw. They got ryleigh tons and tons. Mind you my mom her nannie got her a play gym and walker. Shes so spoiled! They got her a sailors outfit thats a dress for girls! Its to die for its so cute! I cant wait to see her in it. Im thinking of getting pictures done in that. She got two adorable dresses tons n tons of clothes a bib socks headbands a bunny. And we got home made fudge candy BUCKEYES! yummy! They dont have them out here. They also got me money for my b day which was super sweet. Its no nice that everyone gets a long. His parents and me maw are awesome and they love ryleigh to death. My mom and stepdad also spoil ryleig like crazy! Shes such a lucky little girl!

  Of course today was nice out when ed has to work! ugh why does it always work out that way? Hes off tomorrow and thursday and Im looking forward to time with him. Who knew I could be so happy with someone just being in each others company? Thats honestly how it is. I think sometimes he thinks we have to go to dinner or somehing for me to be happy. So not true. I enjoy doing little things and making memories with our little family. Going for walks going to the park I love movie night. Its so fun. Omg I never knew I couldl love two ppl so much its insane!

  So off subject ed and I are so sure there is a ghost in our house! lol. When I was in the hospital giving birth to ryry we got so many visitors esp bc ed works there and has friends. Well the day shift crew went in together and got us a beautifuol thing of flowers w a butterfly thing and a card and a balloon that said its a girl. Mind you ryleigh is 2 months the balloon is still floating. It was in our kitchen after I cut if off the flowers. NO LIE it is now upstairs and Ed nor I touched it. I thought her took it upstairs and he thought I took it upstairs. It just floats in her room usually above her crib. ITS SOOOO CREEPY!!!!!!!!!

  Well Ryleigh is getting sleepy so time for bed night!

My best friend, my hero, my husband

   June Ed and I will be married a year already and I seriously cant believe it. Seems like we have been threw so much as a couple already. I know people doubted us and the things we did but look how it worked out. People thought we were stupid for getting married so fast. But honestly you just know when its right. Ive thought it was right with other people but it always turned out crappy. Not with him I just knew. And we got pregnant so fast and I know people were even more shocked. Well some people ran their mouths like that's why we got married. Well that's not true because we didn't find out till fathers day which was a couple weeks after he left for FMTB. But look at us now. We have came so far. Not once have we ever listened to what people say because at the end of the day they are not what matters. We have each other. I cant even begin to explain the feelings I have towards him. When he says I love you I feel like its the first time all over again. I didn't even know it was possible to have those same feelings for someone like the first time over and over again. I never had a person finish my sentences or say the same thing at the same time or say what I'm thinking. And not only do we have each other we have this beautiful little girl that we brought into this world. I look at her and I look at him together and it seriously just melts my heart. She looks at him like I love you Dada your my world. And that means the world to me. Esp bc my dad was always so in and out and still is. So I just cut him off bc now that ryleigh is here I don't want him to talk to me and be around here and then all of a sudden grandpa is gone and shes asking questions. Its not fair to her and I will protect her to the fullest from the world.
  For example when she got her ears pierced ed held her bc I was already a nervous mess. After she had such a tight grip on his finger. It was like her saying daddy protect me I need you. It seriously melts my heart. I couldn't be happier with the bond the two of them have. A daddy means a lot to a little girl!
  I really want our first wedding anniversary special. And I hope it is. Some days I think how it sucks that we never got to have a actual wedding. And I would  love one. But honestly it doesn't matter to me when it comes down to it. All that matters is two people who love each other are one. Hes my best friend the only man who melts my heart. His an amazing father and husband. Hes my best friend my hero my husband : ) I love you love bug! Your my everything

New Blog!

 So today I was re reading my blogs. And at the start of it I wanted it to be just about miss ryleigh. And I noticed I talk more about other things. I decided to make one where I can talk about whatever!! Not going to lie took Bre and Nicole's idea. LoL but they still love me! : )
 Ive only got two days with hubby because Friday he got called in to work which sucks. But he's on call so he doesn't have duty. Which I think is much better because duty's are once a month on call he may or may not get called in. This was the first time he got called in since they started this so I really cant complain. Not only that I'm to excited because this is his last week of nights. I miss him being home in the evening enjoying dinner and relaxing and him being there at night to sleep. I'm looking forward to it.
 Seems like we have so much fun things coming up.His schedule is a little different with switching and all that. But works out for the best this time anyways. I think that one thing Ive learned don't get to comfortable bc military is never set it stone with anything. He is off Easter Sunday which I'm excited because this is our first Easter together. We are probably going to church on base. We have similar matching shirts (lol we've became "that" couple) And back home to cook and another corpsman is coming to eat with us. I always want Ed to invite whoever bc who wants to be alone w out family on a holiday? I wouldn't want to be. Its no inconvenience to us we like company. And we have two families our blood family and our military family. Its important for everyone to be there for each other. Any who so after Easter that next week is my birthday blah! lol After 21 you really don't have a lot of b day to looks forward to. Because after 21 you can do anything so whats the big deal lol.  For my bday I said I wanted to go to the zoo. Ive been dying to go and that would be the perfect weekend.  Its funny now how bdays I don't want to go out any party. Like my 21st bday that was a whole week work of celebration lol. But now I just want to do something as a family. Theres also Holland happenings here w a street fair that weekend. So its going to be lots of fun and I'm sooooo excited!
 The Navy has been demanding a lot of Ed lately so it'll be nice that we get some family time together. Which is so much needed. We miss him. And I have a routine w ryleigh every night and I'm looking forward to him being apart of that now. It'll be so nice! Looking forward to it : )